#kinda coming out

[lonely-wandering-heart]

For a while I thought I was asexual as I’m 18 (then 17) and I’ve never been in a relationship or even had a crush.

My friends joked that I was asexual and I know it’s not a bad thing if I were but getting that idea forced on me really closed me in. I spent nights crying myself to sleep feeling that the people I trusted and called friends labelled me as I found it hard to talk about those feelings.

I’ve never been good at talking to people, holding conversations or even just talking about myself. Part of it is social anxiety, the fear that people will judge me or laugh at my choices.

The more I thought about it, I’d never even liked any boys in my year at school and that just helped my friends comment bury deeper into my brain.

When I left school I had a lot of alone time and that helped me realise that maybe for me men weren’t the only option. I went through lots of blogs and spent a lot of time researching bisexuality and if that was me.

Then for a while I decided I didn’t need a label. I was so confused.

Towards the end of 2023 I started to feel like maybe men weren’t even on the table. I felt no connection or desire for a boyfriend and struggle to picture myself with one.

But women on the other hand. Yes I can picture myself dating a woman, holding her hand, her warmth, her glow. I realised that even when describing women in my many failed attempts at writing a book my detail always went so much deeper and was more precise than for the male characters.

And so after slowly working myself through a lot of sexuality confusion and becoming comfortable using the term to describe myself. I am a lesbian.

Thanks for reading this

Yours,

A closeted (though looking back it’s probably made of glass) lesbian.

:)

[chloesimaginationthings]

Happy one year anniversary to this FNAF post,,

[egophiliac]

still ruminating over Lost In the Book With Spooky Skeletons Part 1, so here's a selection of some of my favorite little bits! (...some more loosely paraphrased than others) (I just feel like Idia has no room to criticize in general, okay)

anyway, I'm sure we're just going to have a fun time celebrating Halloween and nothing bad is going to happen whatsoever! :)

[ollyrewind]

Look at him. I would die for him. I would kill for him.

Either way — what bliss.

[pathetic-gamer]

(this is basically the gist of his voicelines, right?)

[ibahibut]

🐦‍⬛: I'm fine..

💀: Stay still

[ruubesz-draws]

Come with Kong to Monkeyland!

Kong just wants to show his New Empire in Hollow Earth

My brain constantly nagging me to draw this as Kong:

[nettleparade]

his one-sided love for life

[ashoss]

dad said it was my turn with juni ba's jason

[akanemnon]

It could get worse and it DID get worse

FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT

MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)

[happypeachsludgeflower]

Liu Qingge comes back to find out that everyone believes Shen Qingqiu murdered him and he’s offended that anyone would think Shen Qingqiu could beat him in a fight. And, as Liu Qingge bitches people out for believing such a ridiculous tale, Shen Qingqiu is off to the side muttering about how he “could absolutely kill that brute if he wanted to.” Liu Qingge turns to him exasperated, grumpy, and annoyed and snaps, “You couldn’t even stop me from killing myself.”

[starry-bi-sky]

on a completely separate note; shizun luo binghe with a disciple shen yuan who fell into the abyss??? *thinks about LBH canonically stealing SQQ's corpse for 5 years* he'd hallucinate i think. like, like visual and audial hallucinations.

Keeps thinking he's seeing SQQ in the corner of his eyes, or wandering between the trees, amongst a group of disciples. Thinks he hears him calling for him, but its just the wind or another disciple.

Gets Xiu Ya reforged but patently fucking refuses to make a sword mound. Because his disciple Is Not Dead :))) There was No Body. He's Not Dead. And If You keep Insisting That He Is, He's Gonna Skewer You :). He's holding onto Xiu Ya so he can return his most favored disciple's sword when he returns. It's on his hip right next to Zheng Yang where it's supposed to be.

Also this motherfucker?? does not sleep btw. He has the image of SQQ, wide eyed and hysterical and standing at the mouth of the abyss burned into his fucking eyelids. Can't use the dreamscape to escape it either because he keeps trying to save him and either he does and it's an incredibly cruel trick to wake up to, or he doesn't and he gets his heart broken in several different pieces again.

There is no convincing this man that Shen Qingqiu is dead. Absolutely nothing at all. He is buried so deep in denial that moles would be jealous of how deep he is. He keeps making tea for two in the bamboo house only to remember that it's just him. SQQ's fans are hiding everywhere, little reminders of his presence. He goes to wake up SQQ on the mornings he sleeps in-- only to find the room empty.

[icantdothistodaybruh]

What a terribly dull ending this is.

[lotus-pear]

smoke break

[catsp1racy]

Fic recs #49: Calm before the storm

https://archiveofourown.org/works/37597804

[soosoosoup]

snowzone